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Rambling #1: Inspiration
01:18
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There's a feeling you get as an artist from time to time
When you encounter a peice and something about it
Something about it clicks into place you feel this surge of energy
A sudden desire to create, to capture a piece of the world, to let its beauty pass through you
It's impossible it's amazing it's electric it's astonishing
A spark of passion trapped inside your mind, begging to be let out
No artist works alone
Maybe it's a little clumsy at first, a mere crayon drawing compared to their masterpiece
But you learn, you get out your canvas and start painting with their brushes, with their words, with their chords
You try to mimic it, and their style bleeds into your own
Combining to create something new, something beautiful
Not imitation, but an homage to them
And to what you could become
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Temple Grandin
02:23
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Open up your murder eyes and see the ugly world that spat you out
Open up your ugly mouth and sing the words, it's how you spit 'em out
In the days before the damage no one knew if we were happy
In the days before the damage dying wasn't nearly even easy now
So open up your murder eyes and see the ugly world that spat you out
Stevie Wonder to the bullshit
Stevie Wonder to the bullshit, baby
Write a nice pop song about it
Cut the world in half I bet that you will go and find a sleeping giant
Turn the page just to wake him up and then turn the page and then turn the page to kill him
In the days before the damage boredom was the same as waiting
In the days before the damage water was the only form of raining
In the days before the damage human beings were the ones who did the chasing
Open up your murder eyes and see the ugly world that spat you out
Hellen Keller to the bullshit
Hellen Keller to the bullshit
Break through your isolation
Temple Grandin to to bullshit
Temple Grandin did to bullshit baby
Find a nicer way to kill it
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mememe
03:01
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You'll never really know
Anything about me
When we were together, I tried to tell you
I used to tap dance when I was in choir
And I broke my arm when my dad crashed a go-kart
He didn't mean to, my mom didn't buy it
I tried on your lipstick, I thought I looked pretty
But you didn't care, no, 'cause you're always busy
And you're always busy, so you never hear me
So you'll never really know
Anything about me
Do I sound like a joke when I'm talking to you?
I take it back quick and I nod like, "True"
'Cause you say so many things, and I don't know what I mean
Short messages to you, short messages to me
Now if I think of a joke, will I say goodbye?
I put my paws on my face and pretend to cry
But I'll laugh too fucking hard, you probably think I'm so mean
But I don't even know you, and now you'll never really know
Anything about me
Is it such an easy game
If I put you right to sleep
Rationale and cheap cliché
Hollow and callously
Could you explain it all away?
Like it was all so clean?
So content about the way it's 'okay bet, I forget"
And I guess I never knew, but I don't think I'll forget
It's cool, I guess I'll never know
Anything about me
Anything about me
No you'll never really know
Anything about me
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KS
06:54
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I'll casually say hey and wave
When I finally meet you
The tickets are expensive
To get to there from where I live
I guess I'll take the highway
You had that Expo in the spring
But I had work and home and things
In the beginning, it was easy to deny
A good friend of mine lives in Kansas
In the beginning, it was easy to deny
A good friend of mine lives in Kansas
Heard of your predicament
Sending my deepest regrets
Twenty dollars are enclosed
To get you through these darker times
I hope that we both stay alive
Enough to figure something out
I'd like to take the train right now
In the beginning, it was easy to deny
A good friend of mine lives in Kansas
Come down to Jersey
Stafford or Edison
Some college kid living on her parents' dime
And wouldn't it be fine?
If she could come and visit you
Well she can't seem to make the time
In the beginning, it was easy to deny
A good friend of mine lives in Kansas
And in the end, it was easy to deny
Another lonely day down in Kansas
Raised in a graveyard
Strange this displacement
I will take great pains
To get to those great plains
Drop out of college
Move to Topeka
A good friend of mine lives there
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Rambling #2: Envy
01:42
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It's one thing to want to be someone else when the someone is abstract
That's just depression
Dissatisfaction with your life
A desire to escape
But when the someone is specific, when you can name them
That's when things have gone wrong
It's admiration turned sour
Dissatisfaction that has latched onto somebody else and grown like a tumor
A level of parasociality that you can't come back from
Once you've idolized the life of another to that point
Once you've diminished yourself to that point
You're in a nosedive
And you've got to pull up before you crash.
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I wish I were someone else
But it seems too stupid to mention
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Tallahassee
05:22
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Window facing an ill-kept front yard
Plums on the tree heavy with nectar
Prayers to summon the destroying angel
Moon stuttering in the sky like film stuck in a projector
And you
Twin prop airplanes passing loudly overhead
Road to the airport two lanes clear
Half the whole town gone for the summer
Terrible silence coming down here
And you
There is no deadline
There is no schedule
There is no plan we can fall back on
The road this far can't be retraced
There is no punchline anybody can tack on
There are loose ends by the score
What did I come down here for?
You
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Housebroken
05:07
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Well we called off your guard as we entered the yard
To convince you to redirect some of that rage
Because who fed you rocks while they ate their thanksgiving?
And who left you out all alone in their cage?
And when you were a pup, well I watched you so close
You ran straight to the distance allowed by his post
You got kicked, you got choked, phrases crept up your spine
When he said, "We must keep our bitches in line"
And on his poker nights, says the same of his wife
He's the top dog, pack leader, a true alpha-male
So make no sudden moves, keep your nose from the border
You move fast, you eat last this side of pecking-order
So why don't you come with me? We've got acres with streams
We won't keep you in cages, make you beg for your treats
We won't tell you to heel, though you might need some time to
Dig up those old bones your young self left behind
You said your offer is nice but here should suffice
Yeah, my younger years were something but that isn't my life
Master's all that I've got, he keeps me having a purpose
Gives me bed, keeps me fed, and I'm just slightly nervous of
What I might do if I were let loose
If I caught that mail car or ate garbage for food
So, as I bare all my teeth
I will ask of you please to just leave
Well your heart has spoken
I feel you're already house broken
Well your heart has spoken
I feel you're already house—
Well, I made you a hood ornament for an oncoming car
Because your bark might seem bad, but I'll show you the scars
From when the state sent you over to deliver your teeth
To the heels of your kindred, breaking chains from their feet
And then you wipe your hands clean, splash of water, paper napkin
While the parrots sing headlines, we wear the leash like a fashion
Try to take out my claws, expect a visceral reaction
Try to muzzle me up, I'll lash out, I'll bite back and
Keep my options open
For fear of becoming house—
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You would know me if you saw me on the road
I’m imposing, I’m explosive, I’m precocious, I’m the most
I’m a roving roiling presence, I’m a lesson of the coast
I’ve sung this song before, by now you’re certain how it goes, but...
Can you sing along?
I don’t hold you to the best, but
Can’t you see the lines and dots?
Don’t you feel as if you’re missing something?
Do you understand?
You think you know the mistress, well
You see me as I am, but...
I’m a skeptic of the senses, I don’t think you’ve broke
The terror found in relishing pretention, I don’t think you’ve spoke
To any of your characters, purveyors of your barriers
The scariest it gets is far behind the world you know, so...
Can you sing along?
She was looking like a summer
Can’t you see the lines and dots?
And in turn, beget the sun within her
Do you understand?
You think you know the mistress, well
You see me as I am, but...
Can you see me with the lights off?
The quale I brought to class?
Articulate the beauty of a flower held behind my back
Face down, ass up, represented in the black auditorium
We’re telling stories of a blasphemous aurator
Is the fur still succulent and downy in the mind
Face down, tail up, feel it jostle in your hand
It’s the beauty of a flower held behind my back
I’m that doggie in the window of your church
Every Sunday, you could see me if your muzzle formed the words
Think absurdly in the evening, think concretely by the dawn
Think along the lines you recognize, but never dared to walk
Can you sing along?
I don’t hold you to the best, but
Can’t you see the lines and dots?
Don’t you feel as if you’re missing something?
Do you understand?
You think you know the mistress, well
You see me as I am, but...
Can you sense the gold within a Friendship saved?
Can you lens the lurid lines belied inside On A Clear Day?
Can you grab the squalid square laid bare amongst a Desert Rain?
Can you nab the stained stripes entwined a meek Untitled 8? I say!
Can you sing along?
She was looking like a summer
Can’t you see the lines and dots?
And in turn, beget the sun within her
Do you understand?
You think you know the mistress, well
You see me as I am, but...
Can you see me with the lights off?
The quale I brought to class?
Articulate the beauty of a flower held behind my back
Face down, ass up, represented in the black auditorium
We’re telling stories of a blasphemous aurator
Is the fur still succulent and downy in the mind
Face down, tail up, feel it jostle in your hand
It’s the beauty of a flower held behind my back
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Rambling #3: Blossoming
01:40
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There's a comfort in wallowing
In remaining in your bubble
In hiding under the covers, shielded from the world
Stewing in the quiet envious rage that you're too ashamed to admit to anyone
But little by little, the inspiration can transform you
Letting a little more light in each day
Until you can come out from under the covers
Your hair messy, disheveled
Bags under your eyes, disheveled from the years spent underneath
But ready to blossom
Not into someone else
But into yourself
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Halo of Light New Jersey
Halo of Light is the musical project of MaeveDX, a person who is reported to exist on
occasion.
With a blend of indie rock, folk, and electronic genres, she creates a sound reminiscent of someone who spends too much time in their basement surrounded by guitar pedals and synthesizers, tangled up in XLR cables
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